I was going to post one of my “Debbie Downer Infertility Posts” tonight. You know, the whole “we’ve been trying now for over a year for #2” thing (not to mention the year of trying it took to have MM). The icing on the cake this month was not yet another negative home pregnancy test–I’m actually used to those by now, but the fact that I can’t take fertility meds this cycle because I have not one, but two, large cysts on my itty-bitty half ovary. If I did take the meds I run a very high chance of the cysts getting out-of-control, turning, and cutting off blood supply to the only ovary I have left. No thank you.
But you know what? I don’t want to be that person tonight. I don’t want to be gloom and doom. All day long I’ve been talking to God (‘Hi, God, it’s Natalie again. Got one more thing I wanna talk about…’) and I feel better. I’m just praying that I get a feeling of peace about all this soon. Do we stop the fertility drugs? Do we keep trying? Do we stop the temping/the charting/the ovulation predictor kits? Do we adopt? Domestic? International? Do we decide that one child is enough? Because right now I have no peace and I need it.
Woah, that just got long-winded and I so didn’t want that to happen.
So, since I want to lighten the mood and I haven’t done this in at least four years…
LET’S DO A QUESTION & ANSWER INSTALLMENT OF THIS OLD SOUTHERN HOUSE!
Yep, you heard right. Ask anything you like, as many questions as you like. Random things. Things you’ve been wondering for years. About me. About the house. Anything you want. Whatever goes!
In other news, last week I found a perfect “big girl bed” at a local antiques store for a steal (Dare I say how much? $65!). It was in such good shape all we had to do was paint it since I wasn’t a fan of the black and gold, haha. Here’s Mary Margaret “in” her bed, before we painted it.