Choosing to be Grateful

Since Moseby’s diagnosis early last year I have struggled with it.

‘Struggling’ is putting it lightly.

I’ve cried {oh, how I’ve cried!}. I’ve questioned God. I’ve been angry at the unfairness to Moseby…and to us. I’ve felt utterly helpless. So I’ve worried. And worried some more. And worried again.

Everyone always says a year has a verb you can associate with it. Like happy. Or adventure. Or dreaming. Etc. My word for 2013 would definitely, positively, have been WORRY.

But here’s the thing: my worrying about my son’s disease helps no one. It doesn’t make the onset of his symptoms later. It doesn’t make his symptoms less progressive when they begin.  All it does is steal my daily joy.

The daily joy I can have watching him grow and run {oh, how he loves to run!}, jump, twirl, be mischievous while smiling the whole time, hugging and kissing, playing with his sissy.  That’s all lost when I worry about tomorrow.

Because as cliché as it sounds ’cause we’ve all heard it before, but it’s true: no one is promised tomorrow. We don’t know what it holds.

This past week at the gym I was watching the news and  I watched Mindy Corporon’s address to the world after her son and father were killed at a Jewish community center in Kansas last Sunday.  Y’all, you have got to watch it.  Her faith, her strength, her value on the days her son spent alive {and not being consumed by the days he missed by dying at 14}. Oh my word. Her words put me in my place.  She helped me to see–crystal clear–that I have to stop thinking about the future and what it holds, or doesn’t, for my sweet boy.

In the news conference she says she hopes that something good will come out of her son’s death. I wish I could tell her it did. It made my heart realize that I have to treasure today with my son and just be grateful for that.

Thank you, Mindy, for your powerful words.

4 Responses to Choosing to be Grateful

  1. Jennifer April 17, 2014 at 10:43 am #

    This is beautiful Natalie and is so very true. Every day is a gift to be treasured. Thank you for sharing

  2. Susan April 17, 2014 at 10:45 am #

    This may be a bit overboard, but grab hold to one of them….Praying here in Suwanee!

    Matthew 6:25
    “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes?

    Matthew 6:27
    Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?

    Luke 10:41
    “Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things,

    Luke 12:11
    “When you are brought before synagogues, rulers and authorities, do not worry about how you will defend yourselves or what you will say,

    Luke 12:22
    Then Jesus said to his disciples: “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear.

    Philippians 4:6
    Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.

    1 Peter 5:7
    Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

  3. Joyce Hughes April 17, 2014 at 11:22 am #

    How beautifully spoken (written)… Take each day and savor its moments. Relish the joy of these growing years.

  4. Mom April 17, 2014 at 7:47 pm #

    When I read this, I cried…it is so true…we all need to enjoy each and every minute we have. I love you and your family so much.
    Mom

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